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Becuz you'll never be mine,I determined once to forget you...
it was fucking impossible..no literally impossible.
so I determined to pray everyday till the day I die to love you even if you didn't love me back!
I determined to write something in here so whenever I'm gloomy about what I'm going through becuz of those words that you shower me with ,they're made out of knifes,I'm going to feel okay again.
well...that's not exactly what I'm most stressed about,
I am...well was!
So stressed about my family and mostly YOU!! ,becuz you were the only thing that I still had hope for. .
I lose everything,I always feel bad about it,but for the first time ever in my life to feel so....empty,scared,cold,insensitive sometimes,broken,on-edge,negative and distrustful.
All just because IM LOST
But no,I still have my life,I still have my half percentage of hope left.
please,don't break it...I need it even if it's not for you,I need to feel again,smile again,and be myself once again,
just stop criticizing me..cuz that's the only way that'll make me alright again .........
